As one Adventure Comes to a Close

As the adventure comes to a close it has yet to hit me that soon I will be in the snowy cold state of Michigan and leaving the tropical paradise I have called home for the past five months. Its been so nice being back in hawaii. So much as happened in the past five months. I have done some of the coolest things that I have ever done, gone to some sweet places and meet some of the most amazing people that I have ever met. I think one of the hardest things about this adventure coming to a close is having to say goodbye. I've really realized that I hate saying good bye to people. It's crazy how close you can get to people after only knowing them for about five months. God truly has done some awesome things in my life. He is indescribable. When you choose to follow God and choose to be obedient even when you really don't want to be things start to happen. God has shown his love to me in this adventure and I can't wait to follow god into the next adventure.  The biggest thing that god had tough me through this adventure is that he is real and even though I don't see him he is faith full. I guess I was always looking for some traumatic thing to happen and then God would be there  and then I could believe that he was real. But it's about looking for God even in the little things as well as the big things and its about having faith. It's the faith to hope onto a plane to go to hawaii for five months where you know no one whats so ever or now very much information about what exactly you are getting your self into. It's faith to go to Cambodia when that's not the place you want to go. Since being back I've realized that I am so glad that I got to go to Cambodia. God has also thought me about his patience that he has a plan and not to rush because he has the perfect timing. As this adventure comes to a close I'm so excited to see what Gods next adventure is. Thank you all so much for your prayers and support as I've gone through this adventure!! 

Choices

So much of the things we do in life is the result of the choices we make. Everyday we are faced with so many choices some big some small like should I brush my teeth today, or should I go to college after dts. sometimes I feel like the choices I make are so small that I dont really even give it much though I just am quick to make a decision and move on with life. sometimes I make good choices and sometimes I make bad choices like jumping off a 35 foot cliff landing smack on my butt and having to suffer with a black butt for a few weeks. choices effect the way you end you end up living. To be perfectly honest I was not excited to go to Cambodia. I was given the choice between four different outreach locations and when I first heard them I knew that i wanted to go to Fiji and be on the boat. when i went off on my own to pray about it God told me to go to Cambodia. I had never felt so strongly about God wanting me to do something, mainly because before I just did what I wanted do and didnt even consult God. when I first felt go to Cambodia I was like no God I want to go be on the boat we are gonna try this again and your gonna tell me to go to Fiji. But when I prayed again God told me Cambodia. I had to choice to go on the boat but i just couldn't do it I knew I wanted to trust God in this and follow in obedience. I was very unsure about my choice and I talked to many people about it. After it was finalized that I was going to Cambodia there was a lot of grumbling and bitterness that came along with it. I cant really say why I didnt want to got there other than it wasnt where I wanted to go. I was not happy I hated my team, I hated to smell of Cambodia, I hated the food, really I just hated every thing that was related to do with Cambodia. One thing that God has really tought me is that happiness is a choice. I choose to be happy. If I wanted to have a horrible outreach then I would,which is what I was making it in the beginning. I was throughing the worlds biggest pity party. God can't force us to be happy, he's not gonna force us to do anything. It is still my biggest struggle here to be happy when things get stressful or I get irriiated I just want to go back to my grumbling. I was challenged to stay possative and me thankful for a whole week and I found it so hard. I just had so many negative thoughts, but in the end it really made me start to appreciate things more. Like the opportunities I have been blessed with. I have really realized though when I make the choice to be happy and positive I truly enjoy myself here and I begin to be glad I'm here in Cambodia. I've also realized that it's not about the location that I want to be in it's about the work that I am doing. To go out and serve God and to follow him and be obedient to what he calls me to do and I should be happy in doing it. I have no regrets about coming to Cambodia.I'm so thankful for the adventures god has taken me on and for the adventures that are still to come!!