Sometimes I just think did the past few months really happen? they went by so fast and so much amazing things happened. I sit and wonder did I really meet some of the coolest people ever that I'm proud to call them family, did I live in Hawaii and then take off to Cambodia for a few months to go serve the God that I didn't even know if he existed or not before I started this great adventure?? Now that I'm home it all just seems like a blur. Now that I'm home I try and take new steps in the future, but so often I find my self trying to dwell in the past. Sometimes I just want to live in the memories of the past because its easier. I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of what it hold. I'm scared because I don't know whats gonna happen. For the first time ever in my short 19 years I've always known whats next, its either been decided by my parents or it's just right there in front of me, but this time I'm at a loss. I've always been one who tries to live in the moment so when I went on this adventure I never really gave it a clear thought to what I was really gonna do when I got home. I was planning on going down to Panama with YWAM Ships, but God quietly closed the door on that, letting me know that that was not his plan for me and that being home is where I need to be right now. being home is a lot different then I thought it would be. A lot has changed in the past months while I was gone. I can home to a new house, all my friends where busy with school, and relationships with people had also changed. None of it is bad change its just something I have been having to get used to. one of the biggest changes I've been getting used to is not being in such a God centered environment. There are just so many distractions from God. The thing that i really have been trying to remember is that even though life is changing God isn't. God hasn't changed. I have to remember that even though this might not seem like the grandest adventure I need to trust in God for all that he has in my life.
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